Darn Ice

Well I was pretty excited about our appointment today... But I got a phone call when we were getting ready to leave telling me that their office was closed.  Ugh!! She was only the messanger so I tried really hard not to be hateful...BUT it was hard.  I was SO upset!! Can't believe they would close a doctors office esp at a hospital!  I guess we will have to wait another month ((to try the doctors way that is)). 
On a happy note I got to spend this morning with my husband!! Going out to lunch and then on to work at noon.  I really hope that our Ladies Christmas Party at church is not canceled!  I have made 7 dozen cookies and worked really hard on my table that I decorated.... We shall see! 

Doctor Appt...

Getting ready to go to the doctor to get another ultra sound then on to get AI proceedure done on Thursday.  I can't hardley wait!  But after all this time it sure is easy to not get my hopes up.  Praying this is what God has in mind for us?  At church on Sunday he talked about how sometimes it feels like forever in our lives but not in God's eyes he has something planned and is molding us into what he wants before he gives us what we want (wordy I know).
 I pray that I make it to my appt safely the roads seem worse today than yesterday. 
Not my will but his be done!!

Waiting on my hubby...

Although I have spent the day Christmas shopping & wrapping gifts I can't help but have a heavy heart.  I feel so lonely here by myself all day... I get to pick Matt up in about an hour and I can't hardly wait.  Every year I get ready for Christmas, put all my decorations up and put on my "happy face".  But really on the inside I am so sad.  Every Christmas comes & goes and still no baby.  I can't understand what we have done to deserve this?  All I seem to do is cry when I am at home by myself.  My mind just wonders.... And I wonder if we will EVER have a baby?  Will someone every walk up to me and call me Momma?  Will my touch be the only thing to make a baby stop crying? Will I ever get to experience getting to buy maternity clothes?  All I keep hearing is "it will all be okay", how do they know?  I understand that God has a plan for us and I want to do what he has for me BUT I just can't help but be sad...
On a happy note I will get to spend the evening and tomorrow with my fabulous husband!! I am SO thankful for such a wonderful man in my life!

My first post!!!

I am SO excited to start "blogging" about our life!